mad in pursuit notebook


Crazy Brain Blues

Now I'm just driving myself crazy. I have a long list of things to do, which includes stuff I need to do, stuff I want to do, and stuff that just might be agood idea to do.

I'm enjoying taking photos of beads. I'm enjoying posting the photos and saying a little something about them, but I'm not inspired enough to pull the poetry from my soul. So now I'm thinking I should just bite the bullet and start in on my bead/jewelry inventory. But that means being systematic and pulling out the Excel spreadsheet. That means clearing my work table and getting into project mode. I could actually accomplish a lot before we go away. But... (my inner crybaby is sort of whining that she doesn't feel like it).

Questions assail me: What do I want to be good at? Who am I trying to impress? What wonderful, deep, adventurous thing to I want to explore? Shouldn't I be trying to connect with the right online groups to [fill in the blank]?

Okay, I've been here before. The answer is usually to get practical. Forget creativity, inspiration, breaking boundaries, going metaphysical, and the meaning of life. Get down to business. 

I think that means I better do inventories.

Jan 10, 2012